I want to run races.
I want to make music.
I want to read more.
I want to enjoy the minutes while my kids are little.
I want to knit many lovely things.
I want to be more kind
and more present.
Most of all, I want to figure out how to do all these things without feeling guilty that I hadn't chosen differently in the moment. I want to play with my kids, and not feel shame for not running. I want to read a book and not feel guilty for having salad and PB&J's for dinner. I want to experience freedom in enjoying my work and not criticize myself for being away from the family. I want to love my partner and not look jealously at the 30 sweaters my knitting friends pump out every year.
So my word for this year - my oneword365.com is kindness.
I shall be kind to myself as I try to juggle and fail, when I can't put away the guilt I will smother it with self kindness. Because while my life can be chaotic, I need to remember that I am blessed beyond compare, and that is enough to be content.
I want to enjoy this year, and with great kindness (and a good calendar app), I believe I will.