this is the first time I have not been to the Ash Wednesday services. I know, you're either thinking, "first time!? What a crazy lady to always go to that depressing service!" or "gasp! She can't be a TRUE lutheran anymore!"
Whatever. My husband and daughter had to run some errands (read: buy V-day cards for mama), and Shepherd was so cranky tired I was not going to torture church with his fussiness. Instead, he has been asleep since 5:45, and I am hunting down diaconal internship sites for the fall. I must say, so far, the prospects look pretty rad ;)
However, lent has always been a significant time of renewal for me. I relish the chance to watch the changing of winter to spring in the midst of these 40 days of wonder and preparation and intentional prayer. However, I am too busy this year (and too learned) to make a commitment that I cannot keep. Therefore, I have chosen to incorporate two disciplines this season, with the awareness and acknowledgment that I might not be as successful as I would wish, but with the hope that I can be renewed nevertheless. First, I borrowed a 40 Day Journey book by Parker Palmer from the church library. I have hopes that James and I will be able to read the short page a day together and ponder our wholeness in the way that Parker makes so validating and realistic. Second, I intend to pray in color daily - even if it is the shortest, most basic of doodles, I will fight for that creative energy to be spent in prayer.
There. That's not so bad, is it?
(perhaps I should have given up facebook, but I'll leave that for another year...!)